So blah

Sorry I’ve been a little absent lately. I’ve been in a bit of a funk. I never realized how much running kept me motivated. Since I’ve stopped running, I feel so blah. Sometimes I feel like if I’m not constantly moving forward, I’m floundering. What is running if not simply moving forward? Running gave me goals. Something to always strive and work towards. Now that I’ve stepped away from that, it feels like I’m goal-less. What am I working towards? I’ve always kept the Chicago marathon in the back of my mind, which I fully intend on doing in 2012, but it’s too far away. I need something to work on now. I’ll have to find another challenge to take on while I’m letting this hamstring do its thing. I wish it would hurry up already. I’m tired of sitting around like a bump on a log. Not only do I feel blah. I feel like I look more blah. There’s more squish where I swear there used to be muscles. So here’s my immediate plan:

1. Start swimming again. I’m not the best swimmer. I can swim, but I’ve never really understood the breathing while doing strokes. I’m sure there’s a YouTube video or something on that.
2. Find a personal trainer. At least if I’m working on weights, maybe some of the squish can be replaced my muscles again.

Of course, I’m not sure if I should do any of these while the hamstring is still healing, or if I should wait. It doesn’t really hurt any more, more like something is off. A constant ache and stiffness. It only hurts if I move it really quickly in any weird, jerky movements. Any thoughts? Am I ok to do something more than just yoga?

Here’s all the other news:

I went to the eye doctor. There was nothing wrong. This guy tried to sell me on laser surgery. So now I wasted my time (and money) on doctor’s appointments that I didn’t even need. Argh.

Summer is now over. I ended the summer with some Dinosaur BBQ, swimming, drinking, oysters and lobster mac and cheese at Mermaid Oyster Bar (YUM!) and more drinking. Maybe that’s the real reason I feel so flabby lately.