Well that was...interesting...

Did everyone have a super fantastic weekend? I did. But the cat didn’t.



He didn’t get to eat any of this. Poor hungry kitty.

My run this weekend went well, but hill training last night was not as good. The best way to describe it was…interesting. I was doing the workout, moving along, when Coach Cider said she was going to run with me to push me a little bit. As soon as she said that, I started getting nervous, and my breathing got heavier. I ended up running with the other coach, Nina, but as soon as we got to the part where I was supposed to push up the hill, I started having a full on anxiety attack. I couldn’t breathe. I was nauseous. I was dizzy. Why? I have no idea. But I was standing off to the side trying my hardest not to cry in front of everyone. Mostly, I was a little bit embarrassed. Nina got me to run again, but every time I started thinking about it, my chest started tightening up again. She ran with me for a couple of repeats and by the end it was getting better. I would only start to panic at the very very end. I did find one thing that sort of helped- Finding Nemo. There’s the part at the end where Dory says “Just keep swimming. Just keep swimming.” So I repeated that to myself on the last pass or two at the hill.

The whole thing was weird (and embarrassing) and I want to know why it happened. I know I don’t like to feel like I’m losing control of my breathe, but would that cause a full on anxiety attack? Do I not like the coaches watching me? What was it. Even thinking about it now makes my breathing quicken. And when the run was over, I was physically and emotionally exhausted. Who knew running was so emotional? Hopefully running Lisa doesn't become crazy Lisa.